Come away by yourself

 Recently, it had felt very hard to do just about anything. I think this is because I feel like my safe place, my home base if you will, is not safe. I don’t think I even realized that it was my safe place. They often sneak up on me.

Just about every time I get truly snuggled down into one of my safe places I start hearing the Lord’s gentle whispers asking me to come away with Him. For we serve a jealous God you see and He wants to be our one and true safe place. For me this has looked like many things, but usually it’s people. I often find that when I start investing too much emotional energy in another person that it is not long before something goes wrong somehow. 


This time it turned out to be something else. Im that it turned out to be an actual place. I’m not trying to be cryptic but this story is not mine alone to tell, and quite frankly there has already been too much miscommunication. 


So I am fasting and retreating into silence for a period. I don’t know how long this will last but if you need to get ahold of me you should text or call and if you don’t have my number you likely have my husband’s so au revoir. 


Be at peace. I might suggest you join me though and fast all social media for a time. The world is crazy right now and something about online communication just seems fraught with peril lately. Pray about it and see if He is not inviting you to come away with Him to a lonely place for a while. It may just be the only way to get whole and healed.

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