Just words today

 I’m sorry dear reader that I have been absent from this space for so long. It is not that I haven’t been writing, but the angsty wonderings in my journals lately have not added up to much that even I can understand. 

Today is the start of the second full week of my vacation. We just got back from the beach, and that was wonderful. I have been intentional with not checking in with my work email. Or any email. I really, really, hate email. Plus I’ve been writing more. 


It started during November as I decided to do Nanowrimo. I did the cheating version where you count everything you write, like even back story and such, and for the life of me I can never seem to work on just one story at a time so the fact that I had like five going at once helped. Here these last few days though I have been plowing through one story in particular. And I think it will be the one that I start putting up a chapter at a time. All I will say about it for now is that it is a story about a young girl who gets caught in a sort of science experiment and suddenly six other consciousnesses are living inside of her. I tend to write plot-driven stories and I’m trying to expand out to more character-driven. We shall see. 


I haven’t decided how much of it I will edit for you though as quite frankly sometimes the language gets a little salty. Maybe I’ll just post a disclaimer and let you decide. There also is some gender issue stuff as one of the characters is trans. It’s more that I am wanting to see what I can write and do so convincingly, than me trying to make a point. Other than we are all people and deserve some basic kindness whatever your beliefs are. 


Or I could just go with the tamer story, which is about a group of women who form a book club. That one is also fairly far along, and would not really need any sort of disclaimer. I don’t know, I will think on it and if you have an opinion feel free to comment or shoot me a text. 

I may try to update some of the older blog posts as well, but who knows. There has been this thing I have been dealing with that was actually the reason I started this blog, and I’m not sure I’m ready to write about that just yet. Plus it is still sort of getting worked out so to speak. All of this rambling to say, I’m sorry I have been so sporadic. I won’t even promise to be less so, but who knows. Sometimes when I work through stuff it just pours out of me so maybe that will happen. Or I’ll shut this down at some point and just slip away quietly. Truth be told I’ll never stop writing, it is just lately I have largely just been writing for me. 


I mainly just wanted to check in and say that I am ok. I had a wonderful Christmas holiday and I hope you did as well dear reader. I am not sure how this space will continue on, but if you have thoughts on it then let me know in some way please and thanks. 

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